call back the search party iv been found in a dodgy pub with my gob around a bottle of cheap alcopop.

Iv been away as its been a bit hectic.

My sight has contined to deteriate and i had a nightmare finding a free screen reader so i could continue to use my computor.

I finally found one but it meant wiping my vista laptop and sticking xp on it. something the manufatures make as hard as possible. took me a week but got there in the end so im up and running and would like to introduce harry my talking computor.

In the land of carries eye its not going well. I had an appointment at sunderland eye infirmary where i have now been refered to (think the other local docs are fed up of me now).
The doc was measuring my eye movemnet ready for me seeing another specialist next week. She said my eyes are dancing around alot now and arent able to fix on a focus spot because my sight is pretty naff now.

She asked me how it was affecting my life and because noones asked me that i burst out crying. i finally was able to talk about how devastating im finding it. she was very understanding and loverly (and very attractive too!)

after i see the specialist next week im probably going to be refered to the low vision clinic where tehy have specialist blindy things like mega magnifiers and mini telescopes and groovy glasses with telescopes on them to try to help me make the most of my sight as it is now.

they still dont know whats causing the sight to go but are confident they will find an answer soon.

My art work has taking the biggest makeover ever. Its very difficult doing my digital art now but iv found a way to still use photoshop but have had to change my style completely.

Im doing pottery now. (yes you can shoot me. i said i would never go for the easy option but i have and i love it).
Im doing my best demi moore impression at the potters wheel tho i still havnet found a patrick swazie to feeel me up at the same time. send cvs to lonlyblindy@tryingnottolookdesperateandpathetic.com

iv also been talking to a blind painter who creates his painting by making up the image on canvas with plastacine then painting over the tactile image. hes going to send me some of the plastacine so i can have a go. His work has really imspired me and hes allowed me to add some of his work to my website as the guest artist. I will hopefully be adding it over the weekend.

hmmm what else has been going on...???

Oh yeah im having varioud meetings with support business to help me get my own business up and running. I am goin it alone as a drama workshop facilitator. Im going to be targeting community and support groups (ie womens groups, young people, mental health etc), prisons and businesses who want to use drama as part of awareness training.

ITs basically what my degree is in and i did the drama workshops for extra cash when i was in uni so i know i can do it i just need to do it properly this time as a self employed thespian.

As my sight is really pap now im hoping i can get fundign to emply a personal assistnat to act as my eyes during the workshops. to tell me if people arnet getting on with the work, to describe movements, facial expressions etc and to read and of the written work that will be done as part of the workshops. If i can get this then i wont have any trouble doing the workshops.

bendy wise im doing good. iv not had any injuries or got myself tied up. im clunking alot more but thats about it. my energy seems to be working much better. im very busy now, out most days all day. and i manage to get through the day. i do flake out by the weekend tho so i have to be careful and start pacing myself better during the week.

think thats about it for now.

hope everyone is ok.

cx